I am lost again.So, lost.

I feel changes in me in these few days.

I become a more happier and easy come easy go person.

I am more being myself. I stop having the 7 sins in me.

No more hatred in me to my rivals and no more foul-mouthed me.

But,just like the game "One Way" that I had in the "Lost Camp". Holding on the rope that leads to the god. You are surrounded by devils and angels and a lot of turbulent and circumstances.

Just like what some of the S.W.A.T team in the "Lost Camp" told me. Once you accept Jesus.You'll face a lot of trouble making your spirit in believing Jesus become weaker.

I hate this kind of feelings. The new life has just begun and now there are so many interruptions. Trying to convince me. Trying to make me lose myself. Trying hard to weaken my spirit.

To be frank.My family is not happy with my decision of joining the church. They are afraid that I am a Christian .They warned me not. I lied them. Hope god will forgive me. I'm a sinner. I lied them. And I don't know how long this lie will cover the truth. I know one day.They'll know it.
I don't care. It's my choice. It's me. But they are my parents....

One day, I hope god can open their heart.Now, I just want everyone who read this blog to keep your mouth crossed. I don't want them to know anything about this. Please! My mind are tangled now. I'll solve this problem by myself. Let it be me,the one to solve this tangled piece of mind. Let it be me to solve it.I know one day.I'll solve the tangled knot.Place it nice.And let it be smooth.So, Please.... Just keep it alone. Just for yourself.Okay?

Don't ever call or meet my parent.Trying to convince them or whatever. I don't want you guys to be the victims. Just let me.Face this problem. Promise me. Take this promise as your respect to me. I beg you guys.

I will not make anyone disappointed since the day I start to believe Jesus.
So, everyone.Pray hard for me.
I'll pray hard to god. Nothing can stop my passion in my beliefs.

To anyone who is reading this piece of post....God Bless You.
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